Where to start...so much has changed in 10 days.
In one sentence: our adoption is suspended.
Oh the grief that comes with that sentence. Our hearts broke, sadness is rampant, so many questions arose.
Our agency
We scheduled a call with our coordinator for Monday, March 23 at 5 am. We wanted enough time to fully discuss what it meant and then have some time together to grieve and process before we went to work. Our coordinator was amazing, she let us grieve and validated our sadness, she definitely doesn't have an easy job.
We were given 3 options:
1. Switch to another country
2. Go on hold with the Uganda program (letting our paperwork expire which would save money)
3. Stay active within the Uganda program (keeping paperwork up to date not knowing when the program may become active again. )
Let me reiterate: We LOVE our agency. We have felt valued and protected by them every step of the way but this is not where we wanted to go. Suspension or Uganda closing international adoptions has always been a fear and now here it was staring us in the face.
We've spent the past 10 days praying we would know God's will in our adoption and that He would guide us in our decisions but many days He felt silent. I think part of it was where my heart was. I struggled with understanding His goodness in the corruption in Uganda. I struggled to see the God who sets orphans in families, protects the widow and the orphan and brings justice to the oppressed. I still don't see it clearly and don't know that I ever will. But there is purpose in the struggle and the wait. Even when I can't hear His voice, He is still active and interceding for us.
We think we have made a decision but aren't quite ready to share yet. Will you pray for us? Pray for Uganda? Pray for ethical adoption agencies in Uganda?
In one sentence: our adoption is suspended.
Oh the grief that comes with that sentence. Our hearts broke, sadness is rampant, so many questions arose.
Our agency
We scheduled a call with our coordinator for Monday, March 23 at 5 am. We wanted enough time to fully discuss what it meant and then have some time together to grieve and process before we went to work. Our coordinator was amazing, she let us grieve and validated our sadness, she definitely doesn't have an easy job.
We were given 3 options:
1. Switch to another country
2. Go on hold with the Uganda program (letting our paperwork expire which would save money)
3. Stay active within the Uganda program (keeping paperwork up to date not knowing when the program may become active again. )
Let me reiterate: We LOVE our agency. We have felt valued and protected by them every step of the way but this is not where we wanted to go. Suspension or Uganda closing international adoptions has always been a fear and now here it was staring us in the face.
We've spent the past 10 days praying we would know God's will in our adoption and that He would guide us in our decisions but many days He felt silent. I think part of it was where my heart was. I struggled with understanding His goodness in the corruption in Uganda. I struggled to see the God who sets orphans in families, protects the widow and the orphan and brings justice to the oppressed. I still don't see it clearly and don't know that I ever will. But there is purpose in the struggle and the wait. Even when I can't hear His voice, He is still active and interceding for us.
We think we have made a decision but aren't quite ready to share yet. Will you pray for us? Pray for Uganda? Pray for ethical adoption agencies in Uganda?
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